The first time that I met her I was throwing up in the ladies room stall. She asked me if I needed anything; I said, €œI think I spilled my drink€. And that€™s how it started (or so I€™d like to believe)€
She took me to her mother€™s house outside of town where the stars hang down. She said she€™d never seen someone so lost, I said I€™d never felt so found €“ and then I kissed her on the cheek€ and so she kissed me on the mouth.
Spring was poppin€™ daises up €˜round rusted trucks and busted lawn chairs. We moved into a studio in Council Bluffs to save a couple bucks. Where the mice came out at night, neighbors were screaming all the time. We€™d make love in the afternoons to Chelsea Girls and Bachelor No. 2, I€™d play for her some songs I wrote, she€™d joke and say I€™m shooting through the roof, I€™d say, €œThey€™re all for you, dear, I€™ll write the album of the year.€
And I know she loved me then, I swear to God she did. It's way she€™d bite my lower lip and push her hips against my hips and dig her nails so deep into my skin.
The first time that I met her I was convinced I had finally found the one. She was convinced I was under the influence of all those drunken romantics €“ I was reading Fante at the the time €“ I had bukowski on the mind. She got a job at Jacob€™s serving cocktails to the local drunks. Against her will. I fit the the bill: I perched down at the end of the bar, She Said, €œSpace is not just a place for stars €“ I gave you an inch, you want a house with a yard.€ And I know she loved me once, but those days are gone. She used to call me everyday from a pay phone on her break for lunch €“ just to say she can€™t wait to come home.
The last time that I saw her she was picking through which records were hers. Her clothes were packed in boxes, with some pots and pans and books and a toaster. Just then a mouse scurried across the floor€.we started laughing €˜til it didn€™t hurt.
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