Chorus For Destruction lyrics

I set a course for destruction
When I chose to give myself away
And I'm afraid to change what I've already started
But I can't find another way
And so I sit and stare out the window
And wonder
Will I ever amount to anything?

At least nowhere is somewhere
I just think too much

I'm bored out of my mind
There's nothing much to do here
I sit around all day and wish that I was somewhere else
And if I had a purpose
I don't know what I'd do with it
I'm so used to this

I feel the pressures of the answers to the questions in my head
I know they'll be there
How do I get back to my state of my mind
My appetite for life is gone
Right now I don't care

I'm gonna give it away
It's ok