I Was Only Joking lyrics

Ever since I was a kid in school,
I messed around with all the rules.
Apologized, then realized
I'm not different after all.

Me and the boys thought we had is sussed
Valentino's all of us.
My dad said we looked ridiculous
But, boy, we broke some hearts.

In and out of jobs, running free,
Waging war with society.
Dumb, blank faces stared back at me,
But nothing ever changed.

Promises made in the heat of night,
Creepin' home before it got too light.
I wasted all that precious time
And blamed it on the wine.

I was only joking, my dear,
Looking for a way to hide my fear.
What kind of fool was I?
I could never win.

Never found a compromise,
Collected lovers like butterflies.
Illusions of that grand first prize
Are slowly wearin' thin.
Susie, baby, you were good to me,
Giving love unselfishly,
But you took it all too seriously.
I guess it had to end.

I was only joking, my dear,
Looking for a way to hide my fear.
What kind of fool was I?
I could never win.

Now you ask me if I'm sincere.
That's the question that I always fear.
Verse seven is never clear,
But I'll tell you what you want to hear.
I try to give you all you want,
But giving love is not my strongest point.
If that's the case, it's pointless going on.
I'd rather be alone.

'Cause what I'm doing must be wrong,
Pouring my heart out in a song,
Owning up for prosperity
For the whole damn world to see.

Quietly now while I turn a page,
Act one is over without costume change.
The principal would like to leave the stage.
The crowd don't understand