Nostalgia lyrics

I'm still sitting here it's twelve o'clock on the dot
And I've been at it for days but see I don't know where to start
You'dbe amazed at the things that crossed my mind esa noche
See I contemplated suicide and overdosed on roches
Kick back firme but it still aint the same
don't hear u calling my name and whos to blame mijo
I gave u everything and I was left with nada
Lost in the fog
Me perdi en una nube de mariguana
Eyes bacame foggy simon I tried to hold it back
But I'm broken down in pieces
And patron is where it's at
I just couldn't understand you
You said it was forever
Would you leave my side?
You always told me never
So trip out

When the days turn into nights
They both end up wasted
Bottle after bottle see I didn't want to face it
You were gone and I was out
On my own
Many came to take your place
But my heart was turned to stone
I didn't feel like lovin anyone
Cause after you I died
I moved on walked away
You can't say I didn't try
I tried to make it work until the very end
And once again you were all out of excuses to pretend
But I don't blame you, it's firme u threw it all away
Just like my homeboy Duende said
"I'd rather be alone instead"
You made me what I am and I learned to live without you
And even though it hurt to say good-bye
I'm cool without you

It's been a couple of months, but it seems longer
Me la paso doing what I do best
Try to be stronger
Kept your pictures locked up
But everytime I'm fucked up
I remember what we went through that september full of anger
Regrets nostalgia amor puro y odio
Las cosas que vivimos cuando andabamos de novios
You can't compare it believe me holmes I tried it
Y el vato de mis suenos wasn't you I can't deny it
Now I'm drifting on a memory you took a part of me
So I try not to think about lo que we used to be
Porque duele cara vez que yo empiezo a recordarte
But I never thought it would be so hard para olvidarte, Chales