Painfully Awake lyrics

If I could say everything
Do you know just what I'd say?
I was forced to spend years away
Toying with my troubles
Playing with my pain

All the times you said you cared
They don't mean a thing
Like a bird, I've got to fly
You can't clip my wings

[Chorus:]
I'm lost inside myself
Trying to get out of a living hell
I don't feel any love
How could they shove me away?
Thought I was invincible, but I still do break
I'm not asleep, just painfully awake

Everyone in this world paints on a smile
And you pretended to care all of the while
Why do I feel so unloved?
I feel like I'm not good enough

Nothing you can say will mean a thing
All of the times you lied to me
And you made me look like I was mean
For taking back all that you see

[Chorus:]
I'm lost inside myself
Trying to get out of a living hell
I don't feel any love
How could they shove me away?
Thought I was invincible, but I still do break
I'm not asleep, just painfully awake

You left me in a mess
You're a devil under that dress
Nobody has seen what I have
You're good side and your bad half
I hope that you will learn
To not be at all like her

[Chorus:]
I'm lost inside myself
Trying to get out of a living hell
I don't feel any love
How could they shove me away?
Thought I was invincible, but I still do break
I'm not asleep, just painfully awake

[Chorus:]
I'm lost inside myself
Trying to get out of a living hell
I don't feel any love
How could they shove me away?
Thought I was invincible, but I still do break
I'm not asleep, just painfully awake