If I Tried lyrics

I was late
and dawn is near though tired as hell
just sitting here
suspended in one of my eternities
as I realized why
my body starts to freeze
I think of all
the hurt and pain you've gone through
and how I was never there for you
I think of all the lonely cries you've shed
as I lay comfortably
in this very bed
and though
I know deep down inside
I couldn't
have helped you if I tried
but I hate myself for it anyway
I think of how you must have sat
all day and night
by the telephone
as your lonely tears begin to fill my eyes
outside the sun's rays
have already touched the skies
(chorus)